Greetings From Planet Young and Foolish

Woah...I still know how to write on this thing...

it's been a minute or two.

Life has been in full swing with school, work, work, sleep, recently an occasional workout.

Da blog took da back seat. 

I don't know how people do so many activities in college...I do none besides work, and sometimes it feels like a one way ticket to Haitis. 

I've been wanting to focus a lot more on my beauty blog, but like everything else I want to do, it's a very long process to completion. Right now, it's in the preparation stages in my head. To be honest, it'll probably be there the rest of my life. 

Lately, after I hit that 20 year mark, I am already started to feel that 20s slump.

People say, "Your twenties are the best years of your life."

Other people say, it's a time to realize you have absolutely nothing put together in your life.

I'm sitting pretty at option B. 

You see people settling down, getting serious, getting engaged, having babies. 

I guess I haven't reached that point (also haven't had any prospects to get me to that point).

But to be honest, it terrifies me. Next stop commitment? I'll just keep riding the bus. 

Avoid at all costs. 

This weekend, I visited my sister, and we went to Zombie Burger in Des Moines.

The wait was over an hour, and while we were standing there, a girl walked by.

By "girl", I mean she was maybe 3 years old. 

The look she gave me intimidated me.

Her eyes said, "I have my life more put together than you."

And she's probably right. 

I feel like I make a string of bad choices that all very much resemble each other.

I'm stuck in a repeating cycle that I can't get out of. 

I know what I'm doing will catch up to hurt me, but I can't stop myself in the moment. 

And then six weeks later when I realize, ehhh not such a good idea, it's too late.

One way ticket to an emotional breakdown.

And it's not just that I make bad decisions in the present. It's the fact that people think I can make good decisions for the future. 

"What's your major?"

"What's that?"

"What are you going to do with that?"

"When are you graduating?"

"Are you going to the career fair, interview, presentation...?"

Are you going to shut up? Because I can't even make a logical decision for breakfast.

Your words need to cease.

And yet, I'm not worried about it. 

I'm not worried about my future husband. 

I guess I'm a firm believer in not getting too serious, too young.

We grow and evolve, and I don't know if it's possible with one person.

We live in a completely different world than our grandparents. Our grandmas didn't have to worry about our grandpas having a Tinder profile, Snapchat best friends, texting.

(excuse the profanity.)

Is it possible in this day and age? I don't know yet. 

I make bad decisions when it comes to boys.

Shun me to hell, but I've had my share of taken boys, going back to exes, a combination of the two.

And obviously if I make decisions like that, I wouldn't make the right pick of the "forever one."

People will have their opinions of that, but I just don't care.

I know that life will work out.

I know I don't want to be sitting in Iowa for the rest of my life.

We can only predict and control what happens to a certain extent.

All these actions will make sense someday. Mostly it'll probably me saying, "I thought I was an idiot in the moment, and look, I really was."

I have to sign off on this post though. I haven't typed anything of such massive proportions for a lengthy period of time, and it's literally giving me carpal tunnel. 

I hope you all are making terrible, young life decisions as well.

Later Haters. <3

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Sketchy Techty.

This post is inspired by:

The video on Facebook about technology and how we are not in touch with reality. 

If you have not watched the video the link is right down below:

http://blog.petflow.com/a-video-everyone-needs-to-see/

At first, I didn't think the video would really be worth while. 

But I was pleasantly surprised...it really made me think about screens and technology is taking over our lives.

Especially the part about how kids being born today NEVER will have seen us without a cellphone. That will be a main part of how they remember us, and that is really sad. 

I never remember my mom being on her cell phone as a child...only her leaving it on the car and driving away. 

Also, technology is a mask. People become different people, act different ways. 

Technology is really the downfall of us all.

Below I have compiled a list things that would be harder without cell phones, computers, etc.

1. Being an ass hole. 

Without phones, people would not have the kahoonas to be mean. This typically goes for boys from my experience, but in high school, there was a lot of cyber bullying, etc. People would never say half the things they say without being behind the shield of their cell phone. 

So the phone, is like, the ultimate tool to just be a raging a-hole.

2. Ignoring people.

First of all, I think ignoring people is like the rudest thing a person can do. It's basically saying, you are not worth the air to breathe because I am just going to intentionally show you that I don't care. If there was not cell phones and we could only talk to people in person, you would not just stare at me and walk away. Cause that's basically what ignoring is. 

1 and 2 kind of go hand in hand. Doing number 1 does not always involve number 2, but doing number 2 always involves doing number 1.

And then there's the whole thing with read receipts.

Those things were intentionally made to show someone you ignored them.

Don't stoop to this level, people.

3. Being self conscious 

Social media subjects you to SO many people that without technology you would never see. Beauty gurus, minor celebrities, etc. It just gives you access to constantly compare yourself to all these random people, who aren't you, have no similarities to you, etc. If you can look at beautiful people and still know you're beautiful, go for it. But we just have to realize just because social media is there, does not mean we are not absolutely fantastic in our very own right.

4. Being anti social

Guilty as charged...when we see a person coming our way, conveniently, a "text message pops up." It's a really bad habit that is hard to break. A cell phone takes away the awkwardness that we create in our heads. It is not awkward to say hi...we have just created that concept in our mind. If we came from the 1950s and looked at us now, we would look like a buncha snot holes.

5. Finding places

Cell phones aren't all bad. They can help you find a random store in the middle of sixty tiny streets.

But we must remember, they make gps systems that don't include texting, Instagram, and Twitter....

6. Always feeling the need to talk

And when people don't respond, we freak out. Now if they are doing number 2, that's their issue. But what if they're busy, phone is broken..I don't know, in jail. And I am guilty of this too...if someone doesn't respond automatically, something is wrong. They're either mad, dead, or... let's see, married? Not sure. If all we had were home phones, then they just aren't home and couldn't answer our call. But now it's just...it's a complete havoc on the human mind really.

7. Talk to your mom

Cell phones really allow me to access my mother whenever I need her. Without my phone, I might have to send her snail mail, and that is just not quick enough. She decided to give birth to me, so she should have known when she signed the contract of motherhood that involves talking to me whenever I deem it necessary.

8. Staying up to date with your old pals

Now this is a good concept, but with bad stipulations.

Because we also use Facebook, Instagram, etc to stay up to date with people we despise. and they do the same to us. So, it's a mixed thing. If only people could use social media to love and not judge...*sigh*

9. Finding viral videos

I am running low on ideas ya'll, i'm getting too excited for the Catfish premiere. 

But without Youtube and people posting videos on Facebook, how would I find videos of people falling off of things, inspirational videos, and cat videos?

I dunno either.

Shout out to little Marcel the Shell.

10. You finding my blog!

How would ya'll find my blog if I couldn't post it to Facebook? 

Duh. 

Thank you so much for reading, love you all. 

PLEASE, PLEASE, please...feel free to message me, follow me, share my blog.

And send me IDEAS for what you want me to write about, I am here to please.

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Much love. 

Habitual Habits

So this week has just been super stressful
superty duperty.

I have a lot of stress habits.
but this week...

my eyebrows I have taken the blow.

I've always had really weird eyebrows, mutilated them.
But it's a nervous habit.

I just pluck, pluck, pluck..tweeze. tweeze, tweeze, tweeze..pluck.

my eyebrows are really truly hardly there. but i just color them in with a handy dandy eyebrow pencil. (which I didn't know about in middle and most of high school when I was being teased about my eyebrows. But hey, i did it to myself.)

So for anyone who reads this, I want to know y'alls stress habits! Comment, email me, message me..whatevs. I want to get to know who's getting to know me!

Email: ahill1325@gmail.com

Soooorry, this blog post is so super short. I don't have anything philosophical to say today, I guess.